Model Saheefa Jabbar opened up about some very dark and troubling thoughts she has been experiencing in a series of Instagram stories. “Yes, I have not been myself lately, which is very difficult for me to accept here. I may or may not know what has exactly happened but it is definitely something I cannot talk about without crying my lungs out. I am in pain, I am grieving, everyday is a struggle for me,” she wrote, adding that she does not “see the light at the end of the tunnel”. “It is all dark and gloomy for me. Yes, everyday, I wish death upon myself. In [the] past 60 days there has not been a single day when I haven’t cried or simply questioned everything,” she said. The model said she has lost 12kg in the past few months and she has had to keep herself “heavily sedated” so she can “sleep off the pain”. “My family has been constantly trying to help me with it but I guess it is my battle to fight (alone) and I have to fight my demons myself. No one can come and take away my pain of me,” Khattak wrote. Khattak also added a note to everyone wishing her well. We wish the model a speedy recovery.