Being personality oriented is not what somebody actually prefers and this is not what society quite easily accepts. Yes, it is true that I was a personality oriented person and the multiple personality is that I had my dad who was the one who actually roamed around in my head all the time. Being personality oriented might be seen but is it a crime that's what most of the people ask me all the time. Look, to make it quite simple, it is a scene when you are actually worshiping a personality but to what extent would you consider it to be a crime. I know that the society around me is not simply willing to accept the fact that I admire some personalities who are not some ordinary personalities but rather they were really strong ones and they had used favour upon the entire state. Most of the times these personalities are cherished and quite well respected but there are also those people in this state who do not respect these personalities either because they are off springs of their rivals and they get disturbed quite easily. I do not think that I am bound to respond to every person who is spreading dislike and hatred in multiple sections but on the other side I would like to see that things do get quite around the corner when multiple people actually see things happening in the opposite direction of what is going on in a natural flow.

One after another there are changes found in the multiple aspects when people are actually side in different personalities and are simply debating on political issues these issues can never be reserved unless there are strong evidence and proof before the and quiet unfortunately in our case we did not have plenty of evidence is before us which was meant to correlate the changes in a longer frame of time. I personally was never really interested in politics and to some extent I can still see today that I am not quite a guy who likes to consider what's going on in in the world of politics and participate in these debates that have no and or no conclusion at all.

Majority of the time these kinds of debates usually end up with bad feelings inside the debaters who have nothing but ego satisfaction for themselves which they also know is not quite a good cause. Being good better is not something ordinary rather it is the skill and the talent which most of the people do not possess and it is a talent that usually demand polishing and this is a skill which demands constant flow of practice. I know this because a good friend of mine who was not good debater but a great better taught me this stuff and while I observed him closely conducting debates on multiple topics of politics and religion, I found him to be quiet strong and fine player.

Let me talk with you about the forbidden fruit. The question is what is a forbidden fruit and the simple answer is the forbidden fruit is the sweetest fruit. The forbidden fruit is something that you are not allowed to go nearby because it is very sweet but in reality it is more than just better it is simply something you cannot afford and you do not want to adopt any further. As far as I believe, I know that there are plenty of forbidden fruits around you but the one that is actually forbidden is the one that leads to another door of your life that you might never have opened before. Yes, this was my case, yes this is the story of my life and yes, this is the tragedy of my life that I would never be able to forget as long as I am alive. Why? Because these have influenced me quite brutally. At times your mind is not willing to accept the changes that happen around you because you do not want to see the other side of the picture which is not in your favour and this was quite my case which is why I believe that I am more of a make-believe lover rather than a truth lover. This is not something that I dislike about myself rather this is the thing that I literally hate about myself and I curse myself for the way I am treating myself and how people are receiving things to be around me. I am not a bad human being, I know this about myself but I am not a strong and courageous person. I am a weak person who is simply living his own life based on his own comfort zone rather than actually facing the truth and seeing what happens with consequences.

I have so badly been hurt because of what I have been to Earth but I must also admit this fact that there are other people who have been hurt even more and they have been disappointed because of me because several people are actually looking around at the things that can go quite differently and they have to correlate the matter that is simpler and have to be taken into account with the senior members who are well experience and who know how to cater the different aspects of history. Why am I not favouring the truth and I am not accepting things for the way they are is because there are plenty of people like me who can handle the issues on their own and I can on the other side live in my own world, but deep down inside I would know that I am not satisfied and being guilty would simply save me alive. I ask myself, why do people get hurt? Why do I get hurt? Why the heart feels it's feelings? The only answer that I get out of all these questions is that I am a person who is not willing to accept the truth no matter how bitter it is.

Let me tell you about the personalities that have actually inspired me. There are basically three personalities around whom my entire life and my entire inspiration revolves. I would like to give an introduction to the three of them one after another, but to begin with I would like to start with Kevin Andrews. Kevin was a man of special values whom no one could match. He was an extremely generous and of course, a kind hearted person as well. His generosity had no match if you ask me. He was so generous that he would even spend his entire wealth for the sake of others. He would not even consider utilising anything for himself. He used to think of others before himself and he used to consider the needs of others before he could consider his own needs. I have got to tell you that there are very few people like this person and I seriously admire his generosity and I believe that one day I can become like him. That's the only practice that matters to me and I want to see myself becoming like him. I have got to tell you this that this was no ordinary personality and I look up to become like him, but this person was more than just one can think of and he was an admiration for me since last five years and this admiration was more than an ordinary one. Rather, it was an inspiration that would drive me really crazy. Crazy enough to give up everything I own and sacrifice it for the sake of others.

The second personality who has been an inspiration for me is McMahon. He has been an inspiration for me solely because of his bravery and courageous. I find him to be brave and courageous but more importantly he seems to be a sharp minded person who knows how to defeat the cunningness and outrageousness of his oppositions. People like myself seriously admire people like him because these are brave personalities and he was among those brave persons who stood up straight and simply used to face his rivals by looking straight into their eyes and showed that nothing could actually stop them from getting what they wanted and he did not want to earn anything for the sake of others. Rather, he wanted to face things for others who would be suffering because of some cruel personalities. His personality was not just admired by me but many other people also admired him for the kind of smartness he had in his personality and he had it for quiet several years but obviously, with a passage of time things changed and matters changed. People and different kinds of perspectives square differently when they are influenced by the debates that have actual evidences and proofs.

Victor Rudolph, the last and the most important personality of all. He was not just an ordinary inspiration for me but somebody I want to be a reflection of. I wanted to live for him, I wanted to die for him. He was my hero so beyond one can imagine that I literally wanted to sacrifice my entire life for him. I love this personality so much that I literally want to die for him. I imagine that what would my life have been unless I would have studied this person in detail. I literally want to live like him, I want to die like him, in fact I want to die for him just trying to defend myself. He is somebody I really love and probably I love him more than my parents and my entire family. Majority of my inspiration depends on this personality and I literally cannot correlate the changes in a way that multiple assessments would change the thoughts of my mind. This personality Victor matters to me more than anyone else and I cannot sacrifice him even for the sake of the other two personalities that I had mentioned earlier. This man Victor is my hero and I have this ambition in my life that I would literally die defending this personality but only God knows how this would happen. Why I admire this personality is because he was very different and simply unique in his kindness. He was a man of great values and great kindness that one cannot quite easily compete with.

He had personality traits of both the other personalities but in his own way. He had leadership skills that he could think in a long-term and forecast the dangerous that could come in future. To make it brief and concise, he was a sharp minded and intelligent person whom one could not quite easily correlate his personality with.

to be continued...