Lily Collins reflects on emotional abuse she faced in past relationship

Lily Collins is looking back on a dark time in her life. The Emily in Paris star recalled the abuse she suffered in a relationship during her early 20s, sharing that it changed the way she carried herself at the time. "My relationship was a lot of verbal and emotional abuse and being made to feel very small," she shared during an episode of the We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle podcast. "I became comfortable in silence and feeling like I had to make myself small to feel super safe." Lily said her ex would use "awful words" to bring her down. Ultimately, her body started reacting to the relationship to a point where it made her physically ill. "My skin was breaking out. I was having these panic attacks and I had kidney infections," Lily explained. "All of these weird physical manifestations but I didn't, at that time of my life, put the two and two together." The actress said a decade has passed since that relationship, but she can still be triggered by it to this day.